My husband, the love of my life, my best friend, the father to our three beautiful daughters. Words can't express how much I love you, and how empty I feel inside right now. I close my eyes and hope to see you walk through these doors, to give you a hug, a kiss to spend time with you. I want my phone to ring and hear your voice. I remember getting off from work and go directly to your job at the hotel to eat together and spend time together before coming home. I will never have these things and it hurts so badly. My heart is hurting. I tell myself you're in the arms of Jesus and you made it and I'm rejoicing because you completed your task here on earth Jesus called you home, but I'm hurting because I lost you, the thought of not being with you or hearing your voice makes my heart shatter into a million pieces. Holding your hand and watching you die was just devastating for me. I wanted a miracle. I prayed, I begged God but it wasn't in Gods plan. I know this won't ever go away because our love was so real but I know some day Jesus will calm this hurt until we see each other again, I can't wait. I have so many memories of traveling together getting stuck in the elevator for almost an hour, horse back riding, riding on the helicopter, we did so much and I will be forever grateful to have had such an amazing husband who cared about me, protected me, provided for me you did everything for me. You were an amazing father, a loving father that did so much for his daughters, you sacrificed so much of yourself being tired stretching money to make them happy taking them to London, Paris, Kentucky and they have memories of you. How much you gave of yourself sending them for sign language classes they used that for dance in the church what a Blessing. Many children don't have or get to experience what you gave our girls. Many children do 't have parents who care or love them. You were the best father and I thank God for you. Thank you for giving me the opportunity to stay home and take care of them, you worked super hard to do it all. I thank God and I thank you. I will cherish you forever. I love you with all my heart, we will be together again!!!!